Monday, January 8, 2007

Me now, pt 1


I don't usually write things like this... but some one told me to try it. So here goes...

Relationships get broken because of lack of trust, insecurities, assumptions, excess control, extreme behaviors, etc...

I finally accepted the breakup today and took off the bracelets for the first time.

When it happened, it felt like a truck came out of no where and caused a head-on collision. Right now the state is confusion, numbness and anger. Not sure what it will be tomorrow or the day after yet... perhaps sadness, regret, anger again.... who knows... Is this what "love" do to people?

I don't like it!

2 comments:

leo said...

"Violins please!" its not love its lust and fear - fear of being alone and lust for something you fear you will never have again....its human nature and its cyclical. There is also sloth, vanity and glutony too but thats another blog. Stop being so dramatic and move on - I will find you another girl except better in all the right ways and closer in proximity. At some point you need to stop the emotional and financial bleeding on yourself by not letting others insecurities and manipulitive behavior dictate your actions. You are a fun, free outgoing person who gets easily manipulated by the promises and expectations of your partners - past and present. True love is 100% unselfish and is devoid of jelousy - I think you will find a happy relationship once you move on and just put all the B.S. behind you. Your freinds and family love you more than any of your manipulative and insecure girls (especially JJ)- So cheer up and stop sounding like an old chinese dramatic movie and look forward to what you will experince in life. I need to a post a picture of you in taiwan when you were happy , having a great time and looking forward to things. Chipper up little camper and get back on the horse! (Violins off)

-old man

YY said...

we all love you, sweet heart :)